Back and empty

hi guys.
Last two weeks I spent in Newcastle with 5 other people from my team (Ray, Paul, Jucyara, Tiago and Rasto). It was kind of fun, allmost as a holiday. No building weekends, dishwashing for 7 people only and a big city to explore (with its nightlife;D), but as I was sharing room with 2 couples... it wasn't as fun as it could have been if you know what I mean. I've been rather melanholic last weeks. I didn't think about some things for a while, but they came strongly back to me one day and have stayed in my head until now. I miss somebody. Or I miss some one, to be precise.. not anyone... oh well...

And today, as we arrived back to CICD, I feel empty and sad in a way. I was still excited in the car, looking forward to meet everybody etc. But as it turns out, the people who I felt most close with, are far away now, or at least seem to be. And other rather unpleasent stuff that's going on. I don't know. Guess I just have to take some time to think things over again. Or ...

Friends, I need you now! Where are you???

Little suicidal me

1,5 weeks ago it was a normal Sunday afternoon. Everything was good, I was going to help Ray to cook dinner (alone!) for like 50 people and I just wanted to go to sportshall before that. That's what I did. But things didn't quite end up as they were supposed to... I was using a jumping rope for a while and had a little brake. Then little suicidal me looked around and said: oh, what's that? oh, that's a body roller! I once saw Danguole using it. I've never tried it but I'm sure it's easy. And that's what happened next: I rolled myeself once and back and thought, wow, this is not as easy as it seemed. And then... it's kind of hard to explain right now, but.... I fell. Straight onto my face. It hurted a LOT... The Big Bang on my head. I was close to loosing my left eye and braking my nose, so I should actually call myself lucky, aye.. But anyway, I wondered to my room, escaping from Jana (the afroredhaired Estonian woman, a Gaia teacher, going to Namibia for 5 years soon) and Ray and then falling to bed for 2 hours... gosh it hurted a lot... i looked like half of my face had been beaten up, especially under my eye. I showed up for dinner and everyone had a good laugh, they couldn't believe I could hurt myself that much with such a harmless thingie... anyway, i didn't go to a doctor and nobody advised me to do that either (at least I don't remember it). About 10 days later, I've seen an emergency doctor twice. I had a mild concussion, but no brain damage nor inner bleeding. Huh... So, I'm gonna be fine. Heh, and guess what? Barbara, a Czech girl broke her nose a week later EXACTLY the same way!!! Hahaa!!! I could't stop laughing as everyone else. It's crazy... and I thought nobody can be as stupid as me.

Anyway, quite a number of stupid things have happened to me lately (my bags have broke like 5 times during leafletting, I've lost my maps etc). Read more about Kristiina's chronicals at Ray's web page www.freewebs.com/rayanne